My Discernible Apathy
Hello Everyone, I would like to thank the readers for dropping by and spending time to read my story . I was born in to a middle-class family , my mom left me when was I was a kid and my father was an alcoholic. I grew under the care of my grandparents whom at the time I called 'Mum and Dad'. I never knew my Dad's side of the family and my mum's side was quite big. She had 3 younger sisters and a brother. I did my schooling and grew into the society to fit right in. Everybody use to make fun of me , because I was short , puny kid . I never bothered much about it during my school days. I took up a science course in college to do which I couldn't complete because of my improper behaviour in college , spending time outside without any attendance . I was good at computers and science. What good would it be if I didn't put my talents on display . My grandad was the only one close in my life. During my college days he had gotten sick of cancer and passed away . I tore me apart from the Inside . I felt numb. Suddenly, I had no interest to do anything , I missed college and due to that fact I had to dropout of college.
I felt like an asshole , when seeing people graduate and I still being an under-achiever . I had not informed the fact that I had missed college or dropped out-of college to my family members. I made up a fake- marksheet online using html-editor, and had lied that I had graduated. A few days passed, they found out the fact that I never wrote the Exam , when they received a package which contained a letter stating my confirmation of drop-out.
I knew what kind of mistake I made . It was life changing, but I couldn't help it . They screwed whatever wee happiness I had in me. Even the little one's disrespected me. I was bullied, toyed and teased around . I asked them for forgiveness, which they couldnt give. I thought of leaving the house and going away , So I told them about it .They asked me if I needed money , I told them I have money to learn couple courses and come back stronger in life. I went away to stay in my friends house and did some computer courses and got a job in Robotics field . I face humungous pressure at home , even now. I asked them to teach me how to ride a bike to which their answer was "piss off" . I'll teach you later. While they live happily around, I still crumble at my feelings.
Some of you may ask "why couldn't you join driving classes? " My friends, I did. I was supposed to get a license long back when I applied for LLR , during which time my grandad passed away . And now I face a hard time for commute . It takes an hour and half(max) to reach the office. If traffic is lenient , it would be 45 minutes. I wanted to stay in a PG close to office , they disagreed. Most of you might have the strength to leave home and go away . I had planned that, but seeing a lifetime of suffering I didn't want to miss whatever family I have left. Since the start I was an orphan And now I have the proofs for it. My days are pretty much polluted for the fact that I have no family , backstabbing friends . For a time Work seemed to be my only antidote, but even the effects of work are wearing off when I think about my life . I wanted to share this story so some of you may find it useful , cherish your loved one's for you'll miss them when they are gone.
Hello Everyone, I would like to thank the readers for dropping by and spending time to read my story . I was born in to a middle-class family , my mom left me when was I was a kid and my father was an alcoholic. I grew under the care of my grandparents whom at the time I called 'Mum and Dad'. I never knew my Dad's side of the family and my mum's side was quite big. She had 3 younger sisters and a brother. I did my schooling and grew into the society to fit right in. Everybody use to make fun of me , because I was short , puny kid . I never bothered much about it during my school days. I took up a science course in college to do which I couldn't complete because of my improper behaviour in college , spending time outside without any attendance . I was good at computers and science. What good would it be if I didn't put my talents on display . My grandad was the only one close in my life. During my college days he had gotten sick of cancer and passed away . I tore me apart from the Inside . I felt numb. Suddenly, I had no interest to do anything , I missed college and due to that fact I had to dropout of college.
I felt like an asshole , when seeing people graduate and I still being an under-achiever . I had not informed the fact that I had missed college or dropped out-of college to my family members. I made up a fake- marksheet online using html-editor, and had lied that I had graduated. A few days passed, they found out the fact that I never wrote the Exam , when they received a package which contained a letter stating my confirmation of drop-out.
I knew what kind of mistake I made . It was life changing, but I couldn't help it . They screwed whatever wee happiness I had in me. Even the little one's disrespected me. I was bullied, toyed and teased around . I asked them for forgiveness, which they couldnt give. I thought of leaving the house and going away , So I told them about it .They asked me if I needed money , I told them I have money to learn couple courses and come back stronger in life. I went away to stay in my friends house and did some computer courses and got a job in Robotics field . I face humungous pressure at home , even now. I asked them to teach me how to ride a bike to which their answer was "piss off" . I'll teach you later. While they live happily around, I still crumble at my feelings.
Some of you may ask "why couldn't you join driving classes? " My friends, I did. I was supposed to get a license long back when I applied for LLR , during which time my grandad passed away . And now I face a hard time for commute . It takes an hour and half(max) to reach the office. If traffic is lenient , it would be 45 minutes. I wanted to stay in a PG close to office , they disagreed. Most of you might have the strength to leave home and go away . I had planned that, but seeing a lifetime of suffering I didn't want to miss whatever family I have left. Since the start I was an orphan And now I have the proofs for it. My days are pretty much polluted for the fact that I have no family , backstabbing friends . For a time Work seemed to be my only antidote, but even the effects of work are wearing off when I think about my life . I wanted to share this story so some of you may find it useful , cherish your loved one's for you'll miss them when they are gone.
